Monday, December 21, 2009

Over the weekend I thought I would take some much needed time to myself and relax all weekend.So I got through Saturday without any problems.No one called talking about their problems or someone.But my peace ended on Sunday afternoon.The first thing I heard when I answered the phone was he left and I don't think he is coming back.Now I could have said I have someone on the other line and let me call you back but that would have been wrong.So I put my ice cream back in the freezer and asked what happened.This person goes on with this long story and I kinda started thinking about something else.Once she were finish I only had one question to ask.Why would you want him to stay if he doesn't want to be there? But if he doesn't want to be there then why make the both of you miserable?I understand that yes she is in love but is it really worth it if his mind is somewhere else.I once heard a guy say he's going to be where he wants to be.The far away look in his eyes or when he seems to be some where else.He's not with you mentally so he's somewhere else.I didn't have any fight in me Sunday because I would have told her to let him go.If he really wanted to be there he would have.No matter how big the argument.He would have stuck it out.Maybe I am wrong.But sometimes you have to let people leave.It hurts like hell when they do but at the end of the you will see that you are so much better without them.I know that it can be hard to let people go but it is a part of life.We sometimes get rid of the people that we need to keep around and keep the ones we need to let go.I hate letting people go but I have learned that when you keep them around longer than they need to be other parts of your life start to get screwed up.Maybe she got what I was saying.I hope that she got what I was saying.If he says he doesn't want to be there than guess what he doesn't want to be there.So just let him go and move on.I know that it is easier said than done.I know.I checked on her earlier today and got no response.I hope that she took some time to think what she wants.Will she really be happy with him around?So I have taken some time to think about it and this is my thought.Not that it really matters lol.I understand that you love him and maybe he loves you to.But take some time to really think what would make you happy.Does he cause you more heart ache than joy?Every relationship has it problems but if my heart ache out weights the joy than I can't stay in this relationship.Crying myself to sleep isn't an option for me.Been there and done that.So friend take some you time and figure it out.
Peace and Love!!!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Peace Protection Punishment

Yesterday I watched a documentary on the genocide in Africa.3 Point with Tracy McGrady.I think it is a must see.The people there only asked for three things.Peace Protection and Punishment.Peace so that they can go back home.Protection from those causing harm.Punishment for those taking innocent lives.The things we take for granted they would love to have.But this really got me to thinking.The everyday things that we take for granted would be a luxury to them.We never have enough.Our children here don't even want to go to school.If you were to ask a high school aged child today to tell you something about the genocide could they.Mostly likely not but they could tell you the lyrics to Jay-Z's new song.Very sad but true.A lot of adults don't know anything about the genocide in Africa.My heart goes out to the survivors because we can never feel what they felt.I don't like the word refugees.So the next time you go to complain about not having what you want think about those that don't have anything.We have a roof over our head.Clothes on our backs and food in our stomach.It may not be what we want but it is better than nothing at all.Be thankful for every little thing that you have.Teach your kids to be thankful for the things that they get.Teach them to be grateful for you their parents.If they see us be grateful then maybe they will follow our lead.But what can we do to help the people of Africa? I plan to look into that because they need all of the help they can get.Every little bit helps.Now I need to change gears for a minute.Last night I went out to dinner with Matt.I thought it was to late for kids to be out but I guess not.When did children become so disrespectful?I know that I have written about this before but last night was crazy. Parents please teach your kids to be respectful to others.Young ladies it is not cute to curse like a sailor period.Young men calling young ladies out of their names is not acceptable.I know some them knew better but the others need someone to teach them.Being loud does not get the kind of attention that you want.If you want that kind of negative attention then you have a long way to go.We have to do better cause our people are in serious trouble.
Peace and Love!

Random Sunday Talk

*Last week was World AIDS day.I meant to write something on Tuesday.AIDS/HIV is the top killer of Black and Latino women in the United States.I see that as a problem.Why is this not the front page of a newspaper?We as people get upset over the wrong things.As a black women I see this as a major problem.Yes we as women have to do our part and make sure that we are protected.We have to take a stand and say no.No we are not going to have sex with you if you don't have a condom.Let's go together as a couple and get tested.No this not a gay mans disease.This is a disease that can hit anyone at anytime.So let's take control and stand up against this disease.Always protect yourself.Make sure you and your partner have been tested.Don't be afraid to talk about this.If you are going to have sex with a person then you should be able to talk to them about their status.If you don't take care of yourself no one else will.
*Have you ever met someone who always has some type of drama going in their life? I have a friend that always has something going on.No matter the time of day she has something going on.Yesterday at 6:30 am she sent me a text message with some damn drama.I didn't even respond because I have decided not to play into that.We all have drama going on at some point in our life but not all the time.The things that she says is just crazy.My point is get over it and stop making everything into something bigger than it is.If someone does something you don't like walk away.Leave that person that keeps playing you for stupid.Grow up and stop playing these games because it gets old after awhile.
*My birthday is coming up on the 15th of this month.I have decided to do something small with just a few friends.I have always preferred the smaller gatherings anyway.I don't feel like I should be 26 this year.I still like I am 18 sometime lol.But I am blessed to make it another year.I think that is all I have to say for now.
Peace and Love!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Real Friends

I have a very small group of real friends.I have known them for the last 10 years.A few I have known for longer.We are all at different stages in our life right now.Some are becoming parents.Beginning relationships.Ending relationships.Some are stuck in relationships.A few are coming to terms with their identity.So we don't get to talk or see each other often now.Our nightly talks turned into weekly talks.Eventually they turned into monthly talks.But now they are when ever I have time talks.We all have very separate lives.But they are still my friends.They are still important people in my life.I am writing this because I had a conversation the other night and it kinda bothered me a little.Well it bothered me a lot.This year coming up we will all be 25and 26 years old.Each one of us has something going on.Be it school, a job, kids or whatever it is you have in your life to keep you going every day.So no we don't have time to do the things we use to do.It does gets frustrating sometimes when you don't have time for the people that use to be such a big part of your life.We may miss some important events in each others life but don't just write me off as your friend.Don't say something that you might regret later.Yes we have disagreements but we always seem to work it out.We talk it out and get over it.So before you lose a good friend watch what you say and do.You may lose the one friend that really gets you.
Peace and Love