Friday, January 20, 2012

Simple Kind of Love

I always said that I wanted to fall in love under the stars.So when our children asks about our love story I can tell them to look to the stars.Our love will be written across the nights sky under the moon.But for me love has always been simple.Smooth.Quiet.Easy.
It has always been the simple moments.Those simple little gestures that most people often don't even notice.Those little moments that we sometimes take for granted.Like when our fingers are interlocked together like puzzle pieces.A laugh.How our conversation can go on for hours without being forced.A simple word.Beautiful.Or when you have a bad day and lay your head in my lap.Whenever I am scared all I have to do is find that one spot on your chest to lay my head and I know that everything is going to be ok.That moment every morning when you sit on the side of the bed and I sit next you just to lay my head over on your shoulder.Summer nights when we lay in bed with the window open and read a book together.Those are the simple moments that let's me know that our love is strong.Those are the moments that I want our love to be built on.Those are the moments that I want to share with my children one day when they ask about our love story.I will tell them that our love started under the stars.That no matter where in the world we were we could always find each other in the stars.The moon was our guide.Simple.Smooth.Quiet.Easy.We had a simple kind of love.

Peace and Love!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Some of This Some of That

*Well the last couple of weeks I have been struggling with my creativity.It seems like I have lost it somewhere.If only I knew where to find it because I would gladly go back and pick it up.No matter how many times I sat down at the computer I get nothing.I haven't been able to write my 750 Words a day and all I have to do for that is write some words.They don't even have to make sense.But every night when I go to sleep at night I carefully place words together in my dreams like they have always belonged together.Like they were meant to be.I have written books and stanzas in my dreams but when the morning comes they hide themselves where it is they hide during the day time hours.I need to find my creativity so that I can do something with myself.

*Last night someone asked if they could come and stay with me until they get on their feet.Now if this was a family member or close friend I would have said sure.I have let my friend and baby stay with me.I loved having them there.But you are not a family member or close friend so no you can not come and stay with me.I don't even know you as an adult.First off this person was never really my friend in the first place.The part that threw me was when he said you seem like a person that is not interested in helping anyone else out.You are all about yourself.To keep from going back and front I just said that I hate that you feel this way but I can not help you.People blow me with this type of stuff.I am not going to take the chance of letting a person I don't know stay in my house.Not happening sir.Kick rocks on someplace else.

*Big news that I have not shared.Next Wednesday Favorite Guy will be home.You heard me right Favorite Guy is coming home to visit for a month.My trip will be rescheduled and I am totally fine with that.So excited to see him.I am meeting him at the airport.My mind has been going a million miles an hour thinking about everything.I haven't really planned anything for us to do so I need to get on that.I didn't plan anything for Wednesday night because I am sure he will be tired after a 18 hour flight.I am just excited about him coming home and getting to spend some quality time with him.Hits dougie at my desk.

*Fyi I have been putting hits dougie at the end of everything lately.Don't ask me why but I have lol.Now i think I need to move on to something else.Maybe the cat daddy even thought I haven't seen anyone do it.Oh well back to hitting my dougie lol.

*I have fallen in love with the poetry of Jasmin Mans.Love her work.It is something about her voice that just draws me in.Defiantly check her out.

I guess that is all I have for now.Enjoy!
Peace and Love!

Friday, January 13, 2012

I Don't Need An Apology

Last night I decided to sleep with my phone on silence for some reason.I never do that because I am nervous that someone will call with an emergency.So this morning I got up and check my phone like I do every morning and noticed a new voice mail message.

"I was in your neighborhood and thought I would check in on you.Oh yeah sorry for everything I did to you."

Well damn that is some kind of apology. Yeah that was the message left by THE EX.Now let's keep in mind I have not had any type of communication with him.Erased his number from my phone last year in April. It is no need for us to have any type of communication at this point. I have moved on and well I hope that he has to. But that very voice mail got me to thinking about everything that happened and a half ass apology left on my voice mail would never be enough.The thing that really got under my skin is why you felt like you had to say anything to me at all.Just don't apologize to me at all if that is the way you are going to do it.I know him well enough to know that it did not come from a good place. It was a after thought in his attempt to see what I was doing. During our whole relationship I was always THAT GIRL to him. You the girl that is always right there when things went wrong.THAT GIRL that always had his back.THAT GIRL that put up with all his bs because one day it is going to get better with him.Hahaha that joke was on me.Don't try to be nice to me now cause it doesn't even matter anymore. He once said you acting real brand new with me now that you have a new man in your life and that's cool cause we don't rock like that anymore. You are so right about that.I don't rock with selfish people anymore.I don't need that in my space. he says or does just rolls off my back.So keep your half ass apology and erase my number from your phone because you have no reason to call me anymore.I don't need your apologies because they hold no value in my life.They really did.

Peace and Love!